Expressing What You Really Feel

We don’t have work last Wednesday but we also don’t have electricity at home so I went to the nearest mall in out place to do my studying there. I wanted to be in a quiet place so I opted to go to Atrium and checked the coffee shops there.

I was not expecting that the mall will be madly packed with people. I went to all coffee shops in Atrium but have not found a single one with a vacant table. So I went to Powerbooks instead. I was relieved having found a lone table in the corner of the coffee shop inside the bookstore, Dome Cafe. I ordered a sandwich and an iced tea, not coffee since I already gulped a cup earlier that day.

As I was waiting for my order, I look around for an outlet to charge my laptop. I was happy to find one beside my table. On my left, by the way, was a girl using her laptop to update her facebook.. just really doing facebook. I brought out my laptop to start recharging but when I was about to plug it, I noticed that the girl used the other outlet for her phone.

I was annoyed since she saw me looking for free socket and then when I was starting to set up my laptop she hurriedly plugged her phone charger there. So inconsiderate of her! I don’t like people like that.

I can’t express myself easily. I just can’t. I don’t like confrontations but that time I gathered some of my might and asked her if I can have a share on the socket that she greedily occupied. Of course I didn’t say it like that. I made sure that I still sound nice but I also added a hint of sarcasm. Haha. And you know what?! Speaking up what’s in your mind felt really good. It was very liberating. I feel so light.

I really have to learn how to express myself. I have lots of things to say but most of the time I just keep them to myself. There have been a lot of questions in my mind that were left unanswered because I never have the guts to ask. They have been eating up my thoughts. So sad!

I’m a passive person and not to mention very shy. I need someone talkative and some probing to get me talking. I want to overcome this before it consumes me.. and what happened last Wednesday with the annoying girl is considered to be a not-so-big leap but I guess I’m learning!

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