I don’t know what else to write. The lyrics already say it all. ♥

A Thousand Years by Christina Perri


(Verse 1)
♫ Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
waiting for you
Darlin’ don’t be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more

(Verse 2)
Time stands still
Beauty I know she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin’ don’t be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin’ don’t be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more ♫

Carol of the Bells version of Celtic Woman is the best. It even made me feel as if angels were singing to me. Great voice and nice fiddler. I wish I could play like her. Oh, I miss my violin. This reminded me that since its holidays, I should play my violin before work and school consumed my time again.

My 2011 Christmas is by far the most stressful Christmas I have had. I was busy organizing our company’s party not to mention I was also hurrying tasks for my project. Whew! That almost drained my sanity. And speaking of project-related tasks, I should ready myself now for my boss’s inquiries and probably anger for not finishing my assignments. These are those moments when I really wish I could divide myself to accomplish more.

Adding to my already overwhelming stress was the jam-packed malls. There’s the long queue in cashiers that always made me drop the items I supposed to buy. Good thing I was able to partially finish my shopping.

On a lighter note, and I don’t know why this came last, were the things I love about this year’s Christmas. First was of course the gifts! Thanks to all my friends generous and thoughtful enough to give me one. I won’t be mentioning names anymore. I might miss one or two names and I don’t want to rouse sulky feelings. Second was the reunion with friends. It was very nice to see them after quite some time, share stories and laughter over food, and renew your bonds. It’s also great to know that they’re doing great with their lives. Happy for you guys! And lastly was the happy air christmases always bring. I really can’t explain it and I don’t know if you feel the same way as me but there’s something about Christmas that made me smile despite all the worries I might have.

Wishing you all a happy Christmas!

Aurora Borealis timelapse HD from Tor Even Mathisen on Vimeo.

For me this is one of the most amazing phenomenon on earth. Aurora Borealis!

A friend posted on my wall a video of Aurora Borealis and after seeing it, I kind of instantly remembered how I adorned the northern lights. One day, I will go to places where I can view this beautiful night light display. And I will make it happen. I just hope it would be sooner!

Aurora Borealis is named after the Roman goddess of dawn, Aurora, and the Greek name for the north wind, Boreas. It is caused by the collision between electrically charged particles from the sun that enter the earth’s atmosphere. Auroras can be seen as a curtain-like structure in the night sky above the magnetic poles of the northern and southern hemispheres. Interestingly they are called ‘Aurora Borealis‘ in the north and ‘Aurora Australis‘ in the south. And, auroral displays appear commonly in pale green and pink. Although, shades of red, yellow, green, blue, and violet have been reported. Hmmm, I want to see the purple one.

The most amazing phenomenon here on earth!

If I Die Young by The Band Perry

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother
She’ll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors
Oh, and life ain’t always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain’t even gray, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I’ve had just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I’ve had just enough time

And I’ll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom
I’m as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I’ve never known the loving of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand

There’s a boy here in town, says he’ll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best, boys, and I’ll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I’ll sell ‘em for a dollar
They’re worth so much more after I’m a goner
And maybe then you’ll hear the words I been singing
Funny, when you’re dead how people start listening

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep ‘em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you’re really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I’ve had just enough time
So put on your best, boys
And I’ll wear my pearls

♫ ♪ I’d build myself up,
And fly around in circles,
Waiting as my heart drops,
And my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it or

Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even if I knew my place should I leave it there? ♪ ♫

This is the current soundtrack of my life. I don’t want to elaborate because it will just make this post unbelievably long and I’m not yet ready to write about this current dilemma. Maybe in time I will be able to do so but for now, enjoy Adele’s song.

♩♬♪ Together can never be close enough for me
Feel like I am close enough to you
You wear white and I’ll wear out the words I love
And you’re beautiful
Now that the wait is over
And love and has finally shown her my way
Marry me
Today and every day
Marry me ♩♪♫

Hoping that someday, the right guy would sing this beautiful lyrics to me.. but until that day, maybe all I can do is to learn to get hold of my emotions..

I used to pride myself as the rational girl but I was wrong. I guess I’m just like any other girl after all but that’s okay. I like myself better now..

By watching this kdrama, I was inspired to write something about my perfect match ♥_♥. My perfect someone..

♥ would always hold my hand,
♥ would be my BESTFRIEND forever,
♥ is supportive,
♥ would never check other women,
♥ is a gentleman,
♥ would respect me,
♥ would cherish me,
♥ would buy me flowers but he will hold them while we are walking together and would not be ashamed of it,
♥ would love my baked goodies ^_^,
♥ is god-fearing,
♥ would kiss me in the rain,
♥ would ask me to dance with him,
♥ would dance with me in the rain,
♥ loves his mom and sisters,
♥ would take care of me when I’m sick,
♥ would give me sweet surprises,
♥ would take me to his most favorite place in the world,
♥ would make me laugh ,
♥ would give me assurance that I’m his ONLY love (It’s ok though to have crushes.),
♥ would always be open to me,
♥ would never lie to me,
♥ would never make me jealous,
♥ would comfort me if I’m feeling down,
♥ would make my heart beat faster,
♥ is a good listener,
♥ would love to go and walk in the beach with me,
♥ would never ever HURT me PHYSICALLY,
♥ would understand if I’m having mood swings,
♥ would put his arms around me,
♥ would love the weird stuff about me ,
♥ is responsible,
♥ is trustworthy,
♥ would protect me,
♥ would take care of me and would never ever NEGLECT and TAKE ADVANTAGE of me,
♥ would want me in his FUTURE,
♥ would love me FOREVER..

Whew! That was a long list. Meeting someone with all of these qualities is really impossible that is why I’m not expecting. A few of these qualities is fine with me. Anyway, I’m parking on Youtube and watched this sweet video:

The guy in this drama, Gino, is exactly my type.. ^_^ He’s tall, mysterious, rational, straight forward. He knows what he wants in life, hardworking, resourceful, knows how to cook, sweet in his own ways.

I’m so absorbed with this drama. If the girl is hurting, I can also feel the pain. When her friend and boyfriend cheated on her, I feel very upset and also hurt.

There was a scene in the drama that I made me really sad. It was when her ex-boyfriend told Julienne that the reason why he left her for other girl is because she never gave herself wholly to him. I felt really bad. I’ve been told that most guys would want that but I hope to meet someone who will tell me he love me not because he want to get into my pants. I can relate to the girl when he told his ex that her heart beats fast when he kisses her and that hearing his voice makes her feel light-headed because I’ll feel the same way.

I would want my relationship to be based on emotional attachment and not the physical one. I want our love to be pure and true. I know that it is hard to find and that I must work on it.

I’ve also been told by some of my aggressive friends that some guys are shy. They fear rejection. So it is okay if I’m the one who make the first move.. but I can’t do that. I really can’t. I’m scared too. The mere thought of it makes me nervous and my heart to race.

I want to meet someone who will compliment me like a soulmate. I’m willing to wait. I’ll be patiently waiting but please hurry up.

.. or could it be that I’ve already met you?! and I’m just too blind to see and insensitive?? I wish I could tell. I wish I could read signs but I’m no fortune teller. I’m not the type who would assume that a guy likes me if he’s being nice or sweet to me. For me, these actions are just signs of his being friendly unless he said otherwise, unless he said he likes me.

Yesterday, I went home after hearing my mom cried over the phone. When I got home, she told me what happened. My mom is a very emotional woman. She can’t help sobbing while narrating to me what had happened. I tried holding up my tears but in the middle of her story I broke down in tears also. I hate seeing her cry.

Then she said that she’s been hurt by what happened and threatens to leave us. I can’t stand the thought of her leaving us. I grew up and she’s always been there. I almost thought that my mom is forever and the mere thought of not seeing her is really scary.

She told me that she has somewhat voiced out the same sentiment to my father and according to her my dad do not want to stay and look after us, he wanted to go with her wherever she might go. That heightens the sadness.

I know that they have been loving each other more as they grow older. I like the thought of my dad not wanting to part from my mom but I do not want them to leave us either. I always thought that my dad is so lucky to have my mom. She’s the most caring, compassionate, and selfless person I know in the world. But now I realized that my dad loves my mom also. Maybe he’s not just being transparent about his feelings all these years but I know he also loves my mom so much. I never knew of any woman linked to my dad. He never left the house to go to some bar or whatever places guys would usually hang out.

I don’t know how exactly my mom and dad fell in love with each other but my mom told me once that she had been through a lot just to be with my dad.

The video I embedded above just made me remember my parents. They are growing old now but I’ve been witnessing that they are becoming closer and closer to each other. I love you both.

.. and while on Youtube I saw a related video of the same title. I played it and I loved it instantly. It’s lovely and unexpectedly piercing. Here’s my chosen video for that song, Kiss the Rain by Yiruma:

.. music so lovely!