Found this image in flickr and I like it. Just thought of posting it here.

Everyone wants happiness
no one wants pain
but you cant make a rainbow
without a little rain

I’m glad that it is raining. It is just perfect for the activity that I have planned doing today. Studying!

The end of term is nearing and I have to really catch up on my Assembly Programming subject. For the next term, I have two major and difficult subjects, Computer Architecture and Operating Systems and Data Structure. Luckily, for my computer arch and OS it is Prof Uy who will handle the subject. I like that professor. Although complicated, he explains the lesson very simple and he never stops until you understood the concept. He’s very dedicated and you know that he is concerned on his students. For my other subject next term, Data Structure, I don’t know the professor but I hope he’s as good as Prof Uy.

I hate being sick especially if you have a pile of stuff to do. It just gets in the way. I’ve been sick for almost three days now.. but yesterday I dragged myself to the office because I remembered an important task to do. Call me silly but I just can’t relax knowing that something important to be done is left unfinished. Or maybe it could be that I’m just being paranoid.

Also yesterday, we presented our midterm exam in our Information System Design class. We were not able to present a value chain to justify our priority system and I think that’s a major pitfall on our part. Oh well, better luck next time.

Later I’ll have my interview with some students for their Software Engineering class and then my Assembly class after. I almost forgot we will be having seatwork today.

[Sigh!!] I’m feeling better now and hoping not to get sick again..

Yesterday, I went home after hearing my mom cried over the phone. When I got home, she told me what happened. My mom is a very emotional woman. She can’t help sobbing while narrating to me what had happened. I tried holding up my tears but in the middle of her story I broke down in tears also. I hate seeing her cry.

Then she said that she’s been hurt by what happened and threatens to leave us. I can’t stand the thought of her leaving us. I grew up and she’s always been there. I almost thought that my mom is forever and the mere thought of not seeing her is really scary.

She told me that she has somewhat voiced out the same sentiment to my father and according to her my dad do not want to stay and look after us, he wanted to go with her wherever she might go. That heightens the sadness.

I know that they have been loving each other more as they grow older. I like the thought of my dad not wanting to part from my mom but I do not want them to leave us either. I always thought that my dad is so lucky to have my mom. She’s the most caring, compassionate, and selfless person I know in the world. But now I realized that my dad loves my mom also. Maybe he’s not just being transparent about his feelings all these years but I know he also loves my mom so much. I never knew of any woman linked to my dad. He never left the house to go to some bar or whatever places guys would usually hang out.

I don’t know how exactly my mom and dad fell in love with each other but my mom told me once that she had been through a lot just to be with my dad.

The video I embedded above just made me remember my parents. They are growing old now but I’ve been witnessing that they are becoming closer and closer to each other. I love you both.

While I was in the office and doing the usual stuff I’ve been doing for almost three years, I noticed that something is crawling near me. To my surprise, it was a cockroach.. and not to mention a big one. I’m not used to seeing a roach as huge as that in the office so I was really startled. I hate roaches. I don’t like stepping on them and feeling their juices splatter. Disgusting!! Then I realized that the time I alloted to finish my task was not enough so I stayed there until 8 o’clock. I just don’t want to go home knowing that I have left something important not done. If it wasn’t for the guard who kept on urging me to go home, I could’ve stayed until 9 o’clock.

I promised myself to update my blogs so I’m trying to do it. I used to love doing this but now it seems like I do not have energy to move. I just wanted to sleep and speaking of sleep, I planned of sleeping all day this Sunday. But I still have a lot of things to do so I guess I’ll have my all-day-sleep some other time. For now, I have to start doing our papers which was due on Wednesday. We also have to prepare a presentation for this.. So many things to do..

.. and while on Youtube I saw a related video of the same title. I played it and I loved it instantly. It’s lovely and unexpectedly piercing. Here’s my chosen video for that song, Kiss the Rain by Yiruma:

.. music so lovely!

I was not expecting that the mall will be madly packed with people. I went to all coffee shops in Atrium but have not found a single one with a vacant table. So I went to Powerbooks instead. I was relieved having found a lone table in the corner of the coffee shop inside the bookstore, Dome Cafe. I ordered a sandwich and an iced tea, not coffee since I already gulped a cup earlier that day.

As I was waiting for my order, I look around for an outlet to charge my laptop. I was happy to find one beside my table. On my left, by the way, was a girl using her laptop to update her facebook.. just really doing facebook. I brought out my laptop to start recharging but when I was about to plug it, I noticed that the girl used the other outlet for her phone.

I was annoyed since she saw me looking for free socket and then when I was starting to set up my laptop she hurriedly plugged her phone charger there. So inconsiderate of her! I don’t like people like that.

I can’t express myself easily. I just can’t. I don’t like confrontations but that time I gathered some of my might and asked her if I can have a share on the socket that she greedily occupied. Of course I didn’t say it like that. I made sure that I still sound nice but I also added a hint of sarcasm. Haha. And you know what?! Speaking up what’s in your mind felt really good. It was very liberating. I feel so light.

I really have to learn how to express myself. I have lots of things to say but most of the time I just keep them to myself. There have been a lot of questions in my mind that were left unanswered because I never have the guts to ask. They have been eating up my thoughts. So sad!

I’m a passive person and not to mention very shy. I need someone talkative and some probing to get me talking. I want to overcome this before it consumes me.. and what happened last Wednesday with the annoying girl is considered to be a not-so-big leap but I guess I’m learning!

^_^

We have a machine project in my Computer Organization and Assembly Programming class and I have not made a progress on it yet. Although it is due on the 22nd of July, I want to finish early.

This subject is really new to me. I have a really great professor on the subject that keeps encouraging us to do our best. It did work, the encouraging part, but as I embark deeper on the subject I can’t help to get frustrated especially if I’m not getting the results that I’m expecting.

I’ve been told to keep on trying and learn from mistakes but how many more tries before I can finally finish it?! This is really getting harder and harder by the minute. I hope I can do it but seriously at this point I really needed help.

I’m actually trying to study but I can’t seem to concentrate so I watched ‘Dirty Dancing‘, a 1987 movie. I’m done watching it and I now intend to resume studying but instead I just stared the materials I photocopied from the library. Arrgghh!! I have to study.

I hope I can make it this term.. and I hope to keep my scholarship. You know my goal for the year 2010 is to start my MSIT degree and to save. Honestly, at this point I don’t know how to do both.

And oh by the way, I’ve been addicted to this comedy series called The Big Bang Theory. I really love it! My favorite is the guy called ‘Sheldon‘. He’s super intelligent and a real pain-in-the-ass kind of guy but I like him. And I’m restraining myself to watch it for I know it will not gonna help on my Assembly subject.

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That’s it for now. I know this is a nonsense post.

I just got home! Exhausted! I’ve been rendering overtime these days since the release of my project is fast approaching. The deadline has been set and I think it is not negotiable anymore. It has been delayed for almost a year now so we really feel the urge now to really release something by the end of July.

I’m so tired but I miss playing my violin, my stress reliever. I hope I have new music scores to play. I’m tired of playing Suzuki books.

Oh well!!